Prayers Please!

For the past three months I have not stopped bleeding for more than one to two days at a time. I finally called again today because I just know something isn't right. They think I have an infection so I am headed back to the doctor on Friday. Please keep me in your prayers. I just want to feel good!

We made it through!

Christmas was hard! As Sweet Pea's due date nears I am struggling with the realization of everything that happened. I see the date on the milk cartons and can remember with Brooks when the milk expiration showed past August 14th I started to get excited, nervous, frightful, etc.! Well it is getting close to my second due date, but it isn't the same. My milk says January 12th. That means in just over one month it would have been time. To realize 6 weeks from now I would be holding Sweet Pea! I hear people mentioning Valentine's Day (which was my due date) and now the stores have replaced all the Christmas decor with Valentine's Day stuff. I really hope this next 6 weeks flies by and we can look back on this chapter of our lives and realize the rhyme and reason for all of this.

Could this little guy be any sweeter?

We were eating at Chipotle tonight and out of the blue Brooks asked about death. Here is how the conversation went.

B: Did people die?
ME: What do you mean?
B: Have people died?
Me: Well, when people get really old the die.
B: Where do they go?
Me: They go to heaven to be with Jesus.
B: Am I going to die?
Me: Not until you are really, really, really, really old.
B: And then I will go to heaven?
Me: Yes.
Josh: And you will get to play football all the time up there.
Me: You could even play catch with Jesus and throw him the ball.
B: Or I could play catch with "my baby"!

My heart absolutely broke in two. Brooks has been talking about having a brother or sister nonstop lately. Hearing him talk about playing with "my baby" (as he calls Sweet Pea) was just so sad!!

Thanksgiving was hard. At this point I still think alot about how pregnant I would be at each point. However I know that will soon change as the due date comes and goes. Even just hearing about things happening in February makes my heart skip a beat. I am sure each month will be, "Sweet Pea would have been one month now, two months, etc." I just hope that by that point we will be expecting another little miracle!